Living the High Life, in a Low Place

really dont know how to start this so i'm just going to start writing and whatever comes out comes out. sorry

so latley i have been super bummed out and i honestly have no idea why. right now i wish i could just go back in time and maybe if i did one thing different things wouldnt be so screwed up all the time. i keep thinking that maybe if i try hard enough that i might be able to change something that has already happened. and i'm stupid not to realize that this isnt going to work.

i'm so used to things screwing up, that when things actually work out i have no idea what to do and kinda just freeze up. its like im scared to try anything because the more i get into things the worse its going to hurt if things change. and i try really hard to trust other people but sometimes its hard to do when half of the time i dont even trust myself.

and when i finally do trust someone, they give up on me

and i hate how i dont have the balls to tell people how i feel. i hate screwing things up, but it still always happens.

bottom line:
i dont want to lose one of my best friends
but i'm pretty sure that is exactly whats happening.

eeegggaaddd
i flippin hate AP bio
and we have a friggen essay test tomorrow
and we are expected to write 2 pages for each questions....4 questions total
and we have 60 mintues to do all of it....
that is 15 minutes per 2 pages
about 7 minutes per page


aggg

someone shoot me please??

ahh mimi...if you read this....what are you putting for number 3???

I love all of you so much. Last night was amazingly fun and seriously its because of all you guys. I seriously dint know why you guys are freinds with me...but i love you guys so much anyway.


you pretty much all rock my world

A LOT

i have my cell phone
490-1393
call me sometime
if you feel like it

in other news
i like mimi a lot

so i swam the cross channel today which was pretty fun!! a wee bit chilly but fun!

and then i got home and i turned on the television and there was a documentary on Steve Irwin. And I asked my mom, steve irwins dead??" and then i cried cause she says yes...and he's pretty much been my childhood role model and arr...now my life is pretty much worthless~

uggggggg i hate schedules...grrrrrr
i've spent almost 3 days for like 3 hours a day trying to get it to work.
grrr and i just wont cooperate.
gawd if i can take spanish 4 it would make my life soooo
much easier.
uggg


on another note::
who's going to families in the park??

http://www.musicrivals.com/game/profile.php?viewid=18864
just go this link and help me out

haha me and my sister are competing
i think you can only click on it once a day or something....but anything will help
please??

inspiration for band name on this website:mimi

haha i love you guys

ugggg....I am tired

i think i am going to go to sleep

for a little!!!

Oh my gosh

I love Denny's

yesss

hello
i had fun in gresham....the end



MIMI: do you still have a concert ticket left??

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Mook is your soulmate.

You truly love Katherine.

You consider Mimi your true friend.

You know that Heather is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Mad for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Alice is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Karrie is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Jordan is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Jordan changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Alix is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Alix has a hidden internet romance.

wowowowowowowowowwwwwwwwwww
im so excited cause my health is not due!!
and because i only have one day of work left
and then i get
paidddd.


JORDAN:::::
patagonia website summer clearnce sale=amazing
i got that extreamly awesome swimsuit that i wanted the puka dot one that was $72
FOR
$29
thats right $29 for a $72 swimsuit
and my mom got some shorts and a bunch of shirts and that tanktop that you have, the brown one, but in red!!

wow...do we have lifeguard camp tomorrow?


AMAZING

so yesterday i wen to the zoo....and i got
MOBBED
by thes lorikeet things that you can feed.
so i was sitting there feeding one, and then another one jumped onto my arm, and those 2 got in a fight. the another one jumped on my arm and just sat there biting the other 2. then antoher one landed on my shoulder and then another one on my head. Scared the crap out of my even though they were adorable...anyway
that was my day
haha

hello children
umm well i'm really excited right now becuase...i get to go
TO THE FREAKING ZOO TOMORROW!
yessssssssss
yessssssssss
yessssssssss
so excited i am
i hvn't been to the zoo since the last time i was in summer day camp which was when i was 10 or 11 i think!!!

yayayayayaya

now i am off to see Step Up...so adios

MADE-LION [HEHE] GOBBO::::::::URGENT
if and when you get this...is it possible for you to bring your henna gear to the parque en la noche por la movie???
if i do not show up to your casa and it is possible.....bring it please!!
on account i really dont want to ride my bike cause it is muy caliente!!!!


wait are you even going to the movie??

oh drat
if your not
forget it

anyone want a 100% leather stop global warming braclet????
you can see them if you look @ stopglobalwarming.org and click on the link that says take action.
it would be the chocolate brown and green one or the white and green one.
it's $9.00 each with shippin and i would order just one but you can only order 2 @ a time so if someone wants one they can pay me!!!

loves!

Hey everyone
i'm @ an internet cafe
ya sweet i know

anyway:

mimi: I am in cali case you were wondering

jordan: you should definatly go to san fransisco sometime if only to go to the old navy
it is AMAZING 3 stories and its all fancy like....and it is still the same prices!! yay

lauren: we went through this smallll small town of like 1000 people called sexton in nevada...and i thought of you cause you are the lady sexton after all.hehe

Madeline:I have seen absolutly no blonde californian girls so i guess it might be possible that you are actually from cali and you weren't lying to us all these years....haha

Everyone else: i love you mucho and will see everyone @ families in the park on thursady when i get back!!

I seem to have developed a fetish for men in nice trucks....oh god

bye guys
i love you
see you on the 5th
FAMILIES IN THE PARK
yaya!!

ummmm.....bored??caley??much boredness??
yes yes that is my life
and i have not updated for soo long I cannot even remember...
well my sis left today...i had good sushi 2 the airport....i went to may street...called jordan...anddd talked to zoe kao!!
woo wonderful day!!
ohh and got my health thing/did the vocab definitions in chap 6
woo
exciting summer

worst fucking day of my entire life. ya im overreacting but i've been holding everything in for way to long, and im angry and betrayed and now it feel like shit about myself. im so stupid not to see it coming....gawd every sign was right in front of my stupid face....i just chose not to look.... its called selective viewing

So i was looking back at all my old posts and came across the one where you choose 10 people to write about. And i started reading it and i knew everyone except numero 8. And now its really bugging me cause i can't figure it out!!! and its scaring me....help!! Here it is.....



8)I don't really know you, but you seem like a pretty cool person. I don't know you kinda have wierd taste in girls, and I always end up in your car. How is that?? IDK!